Holidays are Challenging

October 21, 2015

7:21PM

You've been on my mind lately.

I am going to assume it's because I haven't written in awhile.

I've been avoiding things that remind me of you.

I've been trying to keep my emotions in check.

I still haven't been able to watch NCIS.

I quickly changed the channel.

However, I have been watching Family Feud lately.

I know this is something you would be doing too.

It's like we're doing it together.

Laughing at Steve Harvey just like I am.

I had a dream the other night and it made me feel like we left something in the house.

Something I need to go back and get.

I know we emptied the house to the point of nothing being left behind.

There has to be a reason why I had that dream.

I began to get upset when I was booking my holiday travel for Thanksgiving.

I used to call you and talk through details.

This time, I text Auntie and Karolyn.

It's not that is was a bad thing, but an unusual thing I have to get used to.

I think about how different Thanksgiving will be, and I am not excited.

I know it'll be difficult for not only me, but for everyone else too.

There may be times I may need to remove myself because I am not able to keep my feelings in check.

I guess I have come to terms with knowing you are in a better place baking with Nana.

Not having a care in the world.

The holidays are challenging.

The other day was Sweetest Day and I was waiting for a message from you.

"Happy Sweetest Day, Sweetheart!"

You're the only one that said that to me.

Honestly, I didn't know it existed before you.

Please continue to watch over me.

I keep a rose in my car, so you can protect me.

I keep your ID and know your watching me.

I keep the bookmark out to remember words you would say to me.

I love you too!

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