Guess I'll Write since I Can't Call

March 1, 2016

7:51PM

Just knowing it is March makes my heart race.

It challenging to realize that it's already been one year since you went on vacation.

I've been doing well with keeping it together.

After holiday gift exchange with 3rd grade team.

When Lita mentioned calling her dad and then did it, I felt myself beginning to shut down.

Phone in hand, knowing that's a call I cannot make.

I'm jealous.

It's not fair.

I want to be able to have a conversation to tell you what's been going on.

Like the fact I am applying for grad school.

I want to be a reading specialist.

I think about all of the extra help you gave to me with reading.

I wish some of my kids go that same help.

Field trip with my 3rd grade class to the air and space museum.

Having a roommate that relates to me and I can talk to, makes things a tad easier.

Karolyn came to visit for a weekend.

We had a ton of fun. We didn't even remember to take pictures.

I don't quite remember what we were talking about but a sensitive subject came up and I had to change it.

We were in public and I could feel myself beginning to get upset.

I have been trying to help others dealing with the same thing.

I advise them to write, too.

It's the closest thing to calling you.

I've calmed down, so I am going back to work on my essay.

Love you too!